"I'm sorry Miss Whitten but at this time we can not offer you admission into our Graduate Program. Good luck in your future endeavors."
I sat at my desk at work fighting back tears. The email I had been hoping would never come, just did. I was rejected from grad school. All I had wanted was to get into this one program. I had prayed about it and prepared fully for it. I had worked and worked to get my materials in and to get my test scores just right. I had researched the program and tried to shape and mold myself into exactly what they wanted. But somehow, somehow it just wasn't good enough. I wasn't what they wanted. I had a good cry then I realized, what if God was actually setting this little rejection in my path to set me up for a better reward ahead?
2016 God laid on my heart to be patient and trusting in His timing.Understand and better grasp the concept that He is writing a beautiful story for me and it is my job to sit back and let it unfold. As cliche as it sounds "He has a plan and the puzzle pieces fit together" So what do you do when His plan doesn't match with yours? I struggle daily with this sister friends. I struggle to realize that what I want isn't always what I need, what is best for me or what is God's plan.
I have a list of things I've planned out for my life and myself and at 22 so far only a few of those things have come to pass. I wanted to be married (at 22 I know such a baby). I wanted to have a baby.I wanted to have a house (still live at home). I wanted to be in grad school ( rejected). I wanted to be setting myself up for this amazing high paying job after college (I was a stay at home, dog mom for 7 months til I got my current job). But let me tell you what I've learned. Let me take your hand and guide you through this sweet little truth...God's standards of success are not the world's standards of success. God's standard of success is not me being married with two perfect kids with the perfect husband with the perfect degree driving the perfect car with the perfect job living in our perfect picket fence house. Quite frankly perfect is overrated.
So no I didn’t get into graduate school. And no I don’t live a perfect cookie cutter life. But the precious truth is God accepts me how I am and He accepts you how you are and He has a beautiful story written. A fairytale just waiting for you be patient to let it unfold. Sometimes we have to be rejected to later be rewarded.
Thank you so much for stopping by and I hope this message has found you well and blesses your heart just a little.