I’m so excited to be typing this and be here with you all at this time! I want to start out by telling you all some things about me. My name is Lauryn Dezarn, some call me Lauryn and some call me Lauryn Ashley. I am 23 years old and live in Southeastern Kentucky. I have been married to my husband, Nathan, for 3 years this June and we have been together for 6 years. We have a beautiful daughter, Madilynn Kate, who will be 2 this July. Last but not least we have two kitties, Potter and Weasley.
I hope that we can be friends and I would love to connect with you all.
Bear with me, it’s going to take a minute to get there but there’s a point to spilling my whole life out for you.
I have been saved since I was 10 years old, so for me I have always felt God in my life. I was raised in a Christian home and have always participated in church. When I graduated high school, I went straight into college. I decided to do nursing, when I finally got into the nursing program I was so excited. I got married that summer and felt like my life had all come together. I thought It was perfect, that was my first mistake. I’m sure when I had that thought God did a little chuckle and said something like “Oh my child.”
The first day of nursing school was here, I was so excited and nervous. I got to the math class that I was enrolled in and I was the only person there. It was 10 minutes past the time of it starting and I was still all alone in that class. At this point I was thinking “Oh Lauryn, you’re in the wrong room. Such a small campus but you still managed to get lost.” As I get up and start gathering my things, a man walks in the door who looks like the teacher. He explains to me that I’m the only one enrolled in this class and he would love to teach just me but they won’t let him. My class is cancelled, the class that I needed to stay in the nursing program is cancelled.
I was crushed and heartbroken. I cried on the way home and all that evening. Not to mention it was my birthday!
At this point in my life, I felt useless and defeated. I felt my purpose had been stolen from me and destroyed. This was the lowest point in my faith, I had never felt so far away from God. I couldn’t understand why He would allow this to happen to me.
After this I decided that it was time for a new journey in my life. I was working at the hospital while all this was going on and I lost all drive and heart for the profession. I took a semester of introductory classes to teaching and enjoyed the work but just didn’t feel connected with it.
I finally started to feel God call me and lay things on my heart that spring. I knew that He was wanting me to come back to Him and work for Him like I was made to do.
A friend mentioned to me that I should consider going to Asbury University. I looked into it the same day and found an online Leadership and Ministry program. I wanted to make sure that it was in God’s will and not MINE.
I’m getting ready to start my second semester and I have never felt more at home and such a purpose as I do there.
I said all this to say this. Jeremiah 29:11 says “For I know the plans I have for you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
When you are at rock bottom and you can’t see two feet in front of you. God sees the whole trip and knows what He is doing.
God has a purpose and plan for you. It may take a couple mountains for you to reach it but I promise He will be there with you every step of the way.
I know that it is so easy to think that you don’t have purpose and you should just give up. But that’s exactly what the enemy wants you to do. Just think if I would have given up after the nursing program and not went back to school.
The enemy wants to drive you away from God and will try ANYTHING to do just that. If you’ll just be still and know that God has a plan for you. He has not forgotten about you sister, He’s just preparing you for the road.
I pray that you find your purpose. I pray that God reveals to you a part of the plan He has for you. If you will follow Him and serve Him, you will get to experience Him like you never imagined.